The Muddled Mind

It is okay . Breathe. Calm down. Drink a glass of water. You have to move on from your past things. You did things and things have happened to you. It doesn't mean that you have mood swings all the time. Dont feel that you are less worthy of anything. You are not. You are amazing. You are your dad's fav kid, you are fun person to hangout with and you are going to be happy and fun all the time.  You have to heal. Heal for the world. Heal for yourself. Heal for the people who love you.  You are never victim , you are survivor. Be a better version of yourself every day. Be more happier than last day. Be more compassionate to yourself. You are going to have great life. Just because something happened to you doesn't make you any less or you have to change yourself to someone even you cannot recognize. Accidents happen and people move on. That's how you have to move on. Just be yourself but better version and with better sensibility. Have that kind of confidence where nothing

Precisely 84 days since I stepped out from my home. I came/shifted to my city right after lockdown started, little did I know that it would lead to such major pandemic and I will be the few lucky ones who  are going through all of this along with the family. So thanks to all the pampering and me being super lazy, i didnt want to step out at all. I was happy in my cocoon. Even stepping out gave me a mini heart stroke until very recently my maternal grandmother actually had a stroke and procrastinating for a week, I finally got hold of my courage and stepped out.  I thought it would be spooky ,empty roads and all that. But apparently people are stepping out. Just like people were carrying their helmet to avoid penalty, all thanks to the govt, now they are keeping their face covered with masks. I was surprised to see roads busy like old times.  Just a brief history, I haven't been in my hometown after Diwali last year and even when I came here this time, my only travel was from airpor